Saturday, July 29, 2006>
oh, it has been a rather eventful week. lets see.
ok, our maths teacher has been a pain in the ass all this while. always picking on students sitting at the back of the class. we're not good at maths, we fail, we get scolded for TRYING. see at least we tried. we talk, scold us. okay thats reasonable. we keep quiet and listen and she stares at us and say we're dreaming.
one fine morning, -
maths teacher: all of you are just stupid and hopeless. stupid. i regretted taking up teaching. i've been teaching for 20 over years now and you guys are the worst bunch of maths students i've ever seen. you guys wana go ite and fail in life?
darrell & yazid, kevin ' the backrow gang': (in deep thoughts) who the fuck does she think she is. if shes that great why is she JUST A maths teacher in this stupid neighboorhood school. and shes been teaching for 20 plus years and havent got promoted? and shes trying to say we're hopeless.
halfway during lesson-
yazid: hey darrell lend me foolscap paper.
darrell: sure, hold on.
(just nice she turns her ugly face at me)
darrell can you get out of the class NOW.
darrell: fuck i didnt do anything wrong man.
maths teacher: i dont care. u guys are hopeless. get out now. i dont wana quarrel with you.
side track abit here, i am a person who had a very bad temper in the past. and i have improved over the years. but this time, it was just KABLUEEEEY again. i couldnt take it and went out of the class room and slammed the door behind me.
and i almost got expelled from school. she claimed i kicked the table at her (which i didnt, i just pushed it aside so i could get out from my seat as i said just now) and slamming the door at her. like wow. (: but the discipline mistress, who is a understanding and normal lady, understood what i was going through and gave me another chance. but still, fuck this dumb school. school is always becoming a dread now. i just hate hate school. come on man, i've got enough problems in my life now and there you are adding oil to fire.told my parents i didnt wana take o's already and they didnt accept my decision. see what happens now la. i got no mood to study anymore. i wanted to go laselle after n levels. but sigh, oh well life has to go on.
one more thing, art. we are so so dead.last year we had time to finish everything. this time the dateline is pushed like what, 2 months earlier!? and we only knew a month ago. theres one and a half weeks more before we can finish everything, and im barely halfway there yet, and i havent started painting. die. we'll see what happens. art is a form of self expression anyway. why the hell do we have to do research sketches and all that. its so fake, i mean, we painters do not give a shit.we just paint what we think of. you think every art student get their ideas from research? no, we do our final design first before doing the sketches. see, no link.
well and i miss her so again. such a turnaround of things. i didnt expect things to happen that way. well but this is my last chance now, its either do or die. and im gonna make the best outta it. i never could draw humans well, dont say a portrait even. it'll be worse. but somehow, just somehow i managed to draw the most beautiful thing to me in my life right now.
saturday was football back at the cage again. there was this team that was really rough. this guy wasnt the goal keeper, he used his hands to hit the ball away while using his body to hide his actions. kicked our legs here and there, literally pushed us to the ground and then say sorry. i said nevermind, its okay to one of them, and he said yea, its just soccer. oh you know its soccer? then why are you kicking legs instead of the ball? now my ankle ligament hurts again, my toe is bleeding and i've got this realllllyyyy painful feeling on my knee. i dont know what it is. theres no blu black. its just really pain whenever anything touches it. even when i wear my jeans. oh bummer. oh anyway it was a one goal knockout system. i guess our team played really well. yay and i scored 3 goals, one with my left leg. (:
may next week be a better week. if you're seeing this, you know i cant wait to see you.
sucide notes and butterfly kisses-
8:09 AM
